I had no idea Jensen was so attached to the Impala, and now I really want him to be able to keep the car forever when the show eventually ends.
I thought Pac Man Fever was just going to be a stupid filler episode and then this goddamn show ripped my heart out of my chest, threw it on the ground, and stomped on it repeatedly.
You know the parable with the two sons? The eldest son stays faithfully with his father. The youngest son runs off to dick around and waste money. When the youngest son comes back in shame, the father has a huge celebration, because God values a sinner’s recovered soul more than a steadily devout one.
Even in primary school, this story seemed like absolute fucking bullshit. Why would the eldest son want to stay loving and faithful upon facing such clear favoritism? He stayed out of love and devotion. The other son only came back because he had no other choice. Clearly, dad always loved his youngest better all along.
John didn’t answer the phone when Dean only had a few weeks left to live, but he would have answered if it had been about Sam.
John hated letting Sammy go to Stanford, but he swung by the campus once in a while to check on him. John , upon hearing Dean point out one of his biggest screw-ups as a parent (Dean was dying! Literally dying! And if Dean hadn’t been healed, would he have let Dean die without ever seeing him again? Is that what Mary wanted for her baby boy?) Says “Yeah, you’re right I almost let you die. But watch that new attitude of yours, son.”
John Winchester can go fuck himself. If you wanna know why Dean is so messed up, look no further.
“You know damn well we could use a break. …What if we finally got one?”
This is a beautiful edit, and it really makes me appreciate the attention the creators pay to the objects on this show’s sets. In general, things look more lived-in and used than on some other shows, and in this scene specifically— look at how much Dean has been drinking. I don’t think it’s even mentioned in the dialogue in this episode, but the room is just littered with bottles and cans.
And I love that it’s so often a background detail, or a solely visual detail. Perhaps because he is so solitary, Dean’s alcoholism is rarely mentioned by other characters— except for Sam, who is pretty gentle about it, given how serious it is. Dean only gets into the details once that I can think of: a few episodes before the one shown here, with a female therapist who will think everything he says is crazy anyway. He tells her he “has to sleep sometime”, which means he is not just drinking but drinking himself to sleep, and says he has something like fifty drinks a week. And Dean is not a light beer drinker.
I wrote before about how Sam is our point of access to this world in season one, and how Dean only opens up to us as the story goes on. But even in season two, when Dean has been shown drinking frequently but not to terrible excess, our brief glimpses of Dean from Sam’s (biased) POV show that he already thinks his brother is a drunk. It makes you wonder how bad it’s been, and for how long.
This was on my dash with another bit of meta, but I didn’t agree with that second bit of meta at all. It’s not that it didn’t have valid points, it just kind of missed the point entirely.
This, however, is exactly one of the things I love about S1-5. I love the attention to detail that crops up in everything. And I love the subtle way they address Dean’s alcoholism.
A lot of people, I think, want to see the show focus on Dean’s drinking. I, for one, am SO glad they don’t. I’ve seen too many shows turn into after school specials, where they address a character’s alcoholism, focusing an entire arc on getting a character sober and, let’s be honest, that’s not realistic. More importantly, that’s never going to happen.
Dean is a drunk. Dean knows he’s a drunk. The audience knows he’s a drunk. His brother knows he’s a drunk. And Dean is going to continue drinking until he dies, probably from liver failure if something doesn’t kill him first. It’s shitty and depressing and so fucking bleak it makes my heart hurt. But it’s real. I have no idea what people are expecting the show to do with Dean’s substance abuse. They portray it, realistically (well, S7 was stupid heavy handed about it), and make it painfully obvious that Dean isn’t (and will never be) in a place to address it.
Because that’s the thing. Dean is self medicating. And the only way he can stop self medicating (aka stop drinking) is if he starts addressing all the shit he’s spent a lifetime burying and repressing. And for a hunter, a guy who lives in perpetual survival mode, this is completely unrealistic.
The show does not ignore Dean’s alcoholism. The show very subtly, and with a good deal of skill, shows us what it means to be an alcoholic. Television (and film) has really given a very unrealistic look at substance abuse. It’s practically a trope. Character starts abusing substance, abuse gets progressively worse, character’s friends stage an intervention, character gets help, toss in a few set backs and voila, they’re on their way to being clean. This is not how it works in the real world. In the real world, functioning alcoholics very rarely reach a point where they understand the dangers inherent in their drinking. Functioning alcoholics live for years and years and years without ever seeing the problem. Functioning alcoholics, especially ones who are self medicating, will never address their alcoholism, because even when they do see that there’s something wrong, they can’t see another path. And let’s be honest, until Dean acknowledges the problem (which I don’t think he ever will) nothing anyone says or does will change his behaviour.
It’s depressing all hell, but if there’s one thing this show has been consistent about, right from S1, it’s that Dean has a drinking problem. And he’s not ever going to get over it.
I’m talking cause, douchebag, as in reason to get up in the morning. Obviously, these things shift over time. We learn, we grow. Now, for me currently, the cause is bringing down the King. And I know we’ll need help to do it.
Just here for moral support. I mean, after all, we go way back.